Death

So one of my turtles died today and I don’t know what to do. I feel like I should cry because I am sad, but I just can’t. Does that make me a monster?  Am I a bad pet owner? I just don’t even know anymore, I felt like throwing up when I saw her bloated lifeless body, I can’t even bury her…I’m so pathetic. Everything seems to be falling down around me and I’ve been on this whole “being a better person” journey and now i’m wondering whether I should persevere or give up. Have you ever been so confused you don’t even know who you are? It’s like living outside of yourself. I just feel sick to my stomach and there are a whirlwind of thoughts raging in my head but I can’t decipher them and it’s extremely frustrating and scary!

Sincerely Lost Girl

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